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[Jun. 20th, 2005|03:42 pm]
malachite cursive
Everyone has left town. The streets around the university are empty, the heat haze comes off them making the distance, the walk in front of me, look woozy. I wander round like the zombie heroine in a Bella Lugosi film, the libraries, the computer clusters, the streets, the shops. There's nobody here. All the people I see wander around by themselves like survivors in a bombed city, they eye me suspectly. I talk to nobody but shop attendants, librarians, occasional homeless. Everyone has a wide stare in their eyes, they are as scared and as lost as I am in this town. A few days ago I walked down past through the woods, down the embankment and out, further still, to where the town ends, dissected by motorway. I sat down on the scrub with an old beat-up tape of Duke Ellington numbers that lurched and screeched in the haze left behind by trucks and cars and vans. Their rumble swished in and out of the piano's glassy, fuzzy drops of chords.

As much as anything, I felt alone again. The people in the cars moving too fast to glance round and see anything meaninful of me. I was a blur to them, as evanescent as a sheep or cow bleating in the unheard distance. All those destinations and all I had to go back to where the green walls of my empty room. Unable to go home, too bored to stay, I am locked in the between-places gaze of those others, solemn, alone, who pass me in the drunken streets, palms clammy with sweat, on tired legs that struggle up the black and white hills, sun over us, white, burning, and buzzing like a broken strip-light.

[User Picture]From: bethanyrose
2005-06-21 09:41 am (UTC)
Hello. I came to visit via Vikki's (la_mascherina) journal. Your journal is refreshingly well-written; drop by mine any time! My sympathies to you over the loss of your father.
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[User Picture]From: darkgreenink
2005-06-25 10:26 am (UTC)
thank you for your comment. sorry i don't have regular internet access so my comments and entries are sporadic. i have added you as a friend.
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[User Picture]From: bethanyrose
2005-06-26 01:50 pm (UTC)
Thank you; I'll add you back, of course. Don't worry about not being a regular poster. I only managed to save up enough for this machine two years ago, and until then I had to use hired ones at the local library, and so I can appreciate that. Besides, there is life beyond this glass screen!
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